FAMILY, FREEDOM,FRIENDS & FOES.....

 When it comes down to your household/family, the streets or your homeboys or even your homegirls....what or whom do you choose? Is it even a choice in the matter whatever the matter may be? For some, fortunately this would be a "no-brainer." Then, there are some who have a totally different perspective. I don't know if the correct choice,or @ least what I consider the correct choice comes with maturity or what. However, if you would allow me a moment to elaborate on some scenarios that led me to write about this, it would be greatly appreciated...

 So, for example, you may work at a dead end job that pays next to nothing all for the sake of saying you work for this man whom you have known for most of your adult life. This may be a man you look up to because he is well renowned in these streets. But, this man preys on those that want the easy way out, those he knows will not want much else besides the street cred associated with being in his sheer presence. However the case, that street cred is hardly earned due to the reputation of the alleged employer/friend/homeboy/homegirl. Preying on the weak minded does not make you a BOSS in these streets. It makes you a PUSSY bc you cannot handle/negotiate w/ a person of a sound mind. You know you need some weak people amongst you to make you feel like a KING. It's just like the group of pretty girls that want the ugly girl w/them at all times...they fear TRUE competition. You need motivation from the outside, essentially depending upon another's weaknesses in order to make yourself feel whole. Honestly, you are a Mental Bully.  So, all the while you continue to put these streets first, .they have nothing to offer you except for DEATH or PRISON.
  Last time I checked, when you go to prison, you learn who your true FRIENDS are. There may be some who have nothing to send you, but can accept your calls from time to time. There may be others who cannot afford to accept your calls, but can drop you a few lines every now & then. Then, there may be others who can afford to help out with your kids while you are away, or even send you a few coins ever so often. These are your true blue FRIENDS.Those that cannot offer even the slightest note or visit to your family's home to simply ask about your well-being, are not your FRIENDS. Those that hang up when you call on a 3 way, or on your own dime, afraid you are going to ask for a handout, are not your FRIENDS. These are what are considered to be FOES. Granted,you probably saw some of the signs prior to being locked away, but disregarded them in hopes that you were incorrect in your way of thinking. Guess what? You were correct all along. Your first instinct was accurate. That time when you thought that same individual had possibly stolen from you when there was a "fall guy" around, or when you thought you felt a little haterism when you were on  top of your game...YOU WERE RIGHT. It was them all along...the FOES, that is.
   Now your FREEDOM is what is attained once you realize the streets are just that...THE STREETS. Leave them there. Nothing in these streets can give you life, love,or loyalty. The life it presents to you is all a perception.It is momentary pleasure.Once the money is gone,so is that life, The love people show you in these streets is just while you are willing & able to provide for them exactly what they need or desire. Once the dope (as a drug dealer) is gone, your alleged LOYAL customers are 3 houses down shopping with that very dude they were swearing they were going to jump on for talking mad trash about your product and your family. That love is fictional. And, as is most love, has its own conditions. This is more of a contractual agreement. It clearly implies or states ,"If you continue to keep the dope I want, and give me credit every once in awhile, I will pretend to love you and shop w/ only you," all the while plotting to have someone break into your home while I suddenly disappear into thin air once I know you are away from your house for awhile. Not only will I plan it, however, I will come back when you return & pretend to be just as upset about the break in as you are and make a false attempt at assisting you in locating the perpetrator. Yeah, I am going all the way in. Please allow me to reintroduce myself. I am 1000%. #keepit100w/meI'llkeepit1000w/u

#favoritismnotallowed...DIFFERENTIATE THE DIFFERENCE.....

One thing that is not easy to deal w/ growing up....is w/ a parent who makes a difference in his/her children. This can be traumatic to the "Unfavored" child. They could grow up always trying to prove themselves, thinking they can NEVER b good enough. How could they be good enough 4 "Society" if they were NEVER good enough for those who chose to make & give birth to them? I mean....I have 4 kids & all of them are different w/ their own flaws. However, they each have their own strengths as well. And, while some are more like me, the others are more like their Dad. Either way...@ some point, u loved that Mother or Father enough to lie down w/ them, so don't take your beef w/ that Mother or Father out on that child that looks JUST LIKE him/her once that person walks out on you or you realize that he/she is not the one. That innocent child did not ask to be born which furthermore suggests this type of behavior proving even more so, society's being unprepared for these children. I definitely was unprepared 4 my kids, especially @ the tender ages of 15 & 16 years old. However, I truly love all my children the same, even w/ all their flaws. Remember, that same child u place on that pedestal will be the very one to disappoint u once they make u want to go hover in a corner by making u feel like a DISPLACED or LOST parent. Yes, u will be wondering where u went wrong when u gave ALL your love to this particular one...while your other children suffered in silence more often than not. That very child u placed up so HIGH will eventually make u feel so LOW. Marinate on that, Facebook. Embrace your children...flaws & all. Love them ALL the same. Who cares if 1 has good hair, 1 is light-skinned, or 1 has most of your characteristics? Who cares if 1 is dark-skinned reminding u of that fine woman/man u r still in love w/, thinking they r coming back? They are ALL your children, Suga. The very ones u placed on the back burner will be the same ones to offer u a kidney when in need. Whew! Lord, 4give me 4 STEPPING ON SOOOOOOO MANY TOES W/ THIS ONE.‪#‎excusememiss‬......‪#‎favoritismnotallowed‬>>>
>{I ♡♡♡♡s Jamik, Katrez, Onni & Brooklyn the exact same.}‪#‎flawsandalltilthedeathofme‬